I have never had anything hurt like this ulcerated cornea hurt. From everything I can gather from what the Doctors have said, it looks like it will take around four months before we can even talk about scheduling a cornea transplant to restore the vision in my left eye.
Friday I was fitted for glasses that will at least let me function again and I am so excited. I can comfortably read again with my new glasses. The scar tissue in my left eye will continue to cause blurriness, but with my glasses the vision is corrected even though it has a permanent white glaze over it. I can drive again with my new glasses. Freedom is mine. Lol!
As you know I have been thinking a lot about what I call the “second half” and what that “second half” will bring. I have a rental business that has been struggling for over a year and a consultant business has shrunk to some degree because of the time I have spent trying to keep the rental business from going bankrupt. As I was struggling with the plan to reorganize or close our rental property business, out of nowhere I got this ulcerated cornea and within forty eight hours I couldn't see out of my left eye. As I struggled through the pain and my inability to work or drive I really started to think about what I was doing with my life and work.
As a practical matter what I have learned over the past year is a bad situation will not get better by ignoring it. Action is required. A plan is critical. And that is where I started to struggle because I wanted the perfect plan, but I have finally realized that it really doesn't have to be the perfect plan. It just needs to be a plan that moves forward toward some end goal. I am reminded of a business principle and probably a military principle as well that goes something like this: “a well executed bad plan generally works better than a perfect plan that is poorly executed.
Today we visited my son at the Healing Place in Louisville. I was rather anxious to see him because, as you know, we spent all day in court on Wednesday and we had a bit of a melt down just before lunch. A “trigger” from his old world brought back a flood of memories and for a moment he reverted back and began to justify why it would be ok for him to leave rehab. Of course if you have ever had to watch someone struggle with their addiction you know how scary a moment like that can be. You can loose all of the hard work that they have put into their sobriety in a minute or less. I heard those demons of addiction in his voice and I, like him, was scared. But we made it through the day and got him back to Louisville. By Thursday evening it was like talking to a different person. He was excited about the next steps of his recovery program and there was no mention at all of a possible failure. He even told me jokingly that when he arrived at rehab he was emotionally, spirituality, physically and financially bankrupt. And he was working really hard on at least fixing three of the four.
We had a great day today with my son. We laughed and talked about the future, which to him right now is the rest of today and tomorrow. And I am so happy that he realizes what is important for his future is doing what he needs to do right now really well. That is probably one of those life lessons that we tend forget. We live for a tomorrow and forget to enjoy today.
So as I plan for the “second half” I want to remember that today may be all I have and while having a long range plan is critical; the most important part of any plan is today’s execution of today’s part of the plan. In other words, the KISS principle applies. Keep it simple. Don’t borrow trouble from tomorrow. Do what you can do today, do it really well and enjoy it. Plan for tomorrow and the future but live every moment of today because we are only passing through this world and there is no promise of tomorrow.
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